Saturday, January 29, 2011

A letter to my mother

Dear Mom,
Happy Birthday! You would have been 64 today and there isn't a day that goes by that I don't think of you. Sometimes it's with a smile when I think of a special memory which I find seems to happen more often now. I can talk about losing you to people without breaking down every single time. I am grateful for every minute I had with you but I still get so mad when I think about how many more we were supposed to have. I see you in my girls, in how they act and what they say. I wish you had more time with them because I know becoming a grandma was one of the happiest and proudest moments...both times.
I worry about dad and know that he misses you just as much as me and probably even more. I try to invite him over and he comes but he never stays very long. I wish he would. I also try to watch out for my brothers and know that you are watching over them. We will be celebrating a college graduation in May and I'm so proud of him. I know you would be too. I always feel that you are with me in my heart. I think about your words of advice and hope I still make you proud. I like to share pictures and stories with my girls and let them know the person that you were. That is what makes me saddest is that they lost their grandma. They will know you through me.
Love always,
Kathy

5 comments:

Brittany Ann said...

Happy Birthday to your beautiful mother!

Kristin at My Art and the Mom in Me said...

Kath.. I have tears right now, falling all over my computer desk.. I remember that exact moment that top picture was taken. I was behind the camera to the left..

I just love you, and your Mom is so proud of you.

Kim said...

Kat, what a beautiful letter. She sounds like a wonderful person and I think it would thrill her to know how you honour her to your girls. I think you eloquently expressed grief here. It doesn't seem to get easier to take, we just learn to live with it in our hearts. What a beautiful picture of you on your wedding day. Happy birthday to your mom up in heaven.

Did you know if you go on your Networked blog page and hit share the post will publish to facebook. Maybe you already did this? I just didn't get it on my fb page.

Alexis AKA MOM said...

What a beautiful post. She sounds like an amazing woman that I know is smiling down on you and is so proud of you and your girls. Just gorgeous pictures, thanks so much for sharing with us!

Diane said...

Your mother was beautiful and you and the girls are a reflection of that both inside and out. Hugs to you this time of year and praying for a wonderful holiday for you and your family.